This blog posts outlines the reason Jeremy Eaton has issues with gurus and trust. Being taken advantage of by Dog the Bounty Hunter’s son, Wesley Chapman, was the last time that Jeremy tried to follow a guide. The guide that Wesley turned out to be was deceiving, manipulative and fraudulent.Read More
We all can listen to the podcasts. We can all watch the same free online content about how to make your dream life happen. We all love hearing about the things we need to do, but very seldom to we take action on those very things to better our own lives. Are we content with what we have?
I have been working with Wesley Chapman with A Human Project and my experience has been a roller coaster. It was just last week that I had a 'lightbulb moment' and all things seemed to come together in this Big Bang.
I have always wanted to do good things with and for people. This was my gift and my curse. I had unconditional love but my love had conditions. I would do things that would have these unmentioned attachments. Some of these attachments, I wasn't aware of consciously. So, for the past several months, I have been working on this trait of unconditional love that I thought I had mastered so long ago. We all do this with our partners, parents, children, co-workers and anyone that we come into contact with. I started to realize that I had no idea what unconditional love was at all, but I screamed from the mountain tops that I was unconditional love.
Breaking apart every failed human relationship I have had in my past made me realize my fault and the part I played in the downfall of that relationship. It is only now that I can look at these people and truly forgive them while finding a way to erase the guilt from my own heart. The time of forgiving myself has come and gone. Moving to a country where I know no one has made me realize that, in this world and for it to work, we all need each other. Every one of us is a support to one another.
I look at the reason why people hate on each other and want to hide my head in shame. This world is a cruel place and we wonder why suicide is looked at as the only option for some. You have to know love to know hate. You have to know wrong to know forgiveness. You have to know a superhero to know a villain.
There are three reasons that you have negative feelings towards a person:
- They have something you want (a lifestyle, a talent, etc)
- They bring out something dark or negative that you possess (a person that is late, a person that fails to keep commitments, etc)
- They failed to meet an expectation that you set (Most likely, you didn't tell them that expectation.)
I don't bring these things up because I am pointing a finger at anyone but myself. I do have people that hate me, my life and my very being. How do I let my haters affect me? I don't. People hate some of societies most valued figures. As we approach Republic Day in India, I am reminded that even Ghandi, the leader of the independence of India, was shot dead because someone hated him. He promoted peace and freedom.
I can't speak for others, but I can speak for my own actions. Have I always done proud by my parents? No. Have I let people down? Yes. Do I regret any of it? No. Everything I have done in my life has lead to a lesson in some way. Have people been hurt by my actions? Yes. Have I burnt many bridges? Yes. Again, do I regret any of it? No. The stage in my life where I have started letting all this go has begun.
Life really is as simple as we want to make it. We need more kindness in the world. We need more compassion. We need more change. The world is already changing all around us everyday. Are you part of that change? - or - Are you leading the change in your own life?
If your answer is no to both of those questions, it's time for your own life to start. Unfortunately, in reality, no one is going to kick start your life for you. The time is now.
While doing the exploration part of my to do list today, I listen to some videos from Gary Vaynerchuk. This guy says the F-word a lot. His message is simple - Stop complaining and Start doing what you want to do. He has over 2.2 million followers on his Facebook and Instagram. He is one of the most sought after public speakers.
One of the videos was of his #AskGaryVee Show, him and his guest were speaking about brutal honesty with co-workers. You get a sense that Gary is serious down to the core. How did he rise to this? He made choices that were his own. He took his path and made it a journey that he is still currently on.
As I was listening, he stated that we shouldn't have anymore whiny Mondays with our head down. After this I was so excited that I actually clapped when I completed my 5K in 17 minutes and 9 seconds. Then, the whole time I was meditating, I was thinking and just letting my brain enjoy this feeling of discovery. I left that exercise feeling energize and ready to get more work done.
The question that stays with me out of all the videos that I watched today - What if this was the last day I had here on Earth? Would I be proud of myself for loathing the roundness of my stomach? Did I accomplish everything that I sought out do? What would I leave behind? What a profound freedom I feel at this moment.
I would most certainly be ashamed of loathing my appearance. I am more embarrassed that I lost all of this weight only to gain it back because of late night Taco Bell runs, lost of pizza and impromptu left turns into Kris&Kate's. I had a teacher in the Landmark Forum very clearly state how you lose weight - EAT LESS, MOVE MORE. I am working so hard to reach a goal of wellbeing and fitness both in my mind and my body. I have even been embraced by the morning staff at breakfast to make better choices.
I have not accomplished everything I have dreamed to achieve. There is a non-ending list of things I would like to achieve in this lifetime. I would like to be a speaker on a worldwide platform for suicide prevention. I made an impact on a local level regarding Suicide Prevention. Also, I volunteer for Crisis Text Line where the majority of the people are looking for someone to talk to because they are contemplating dying by suicide. I want to be represented by an art gallery and make money from my art work. I want to inspire people through my artwork, music and my life.
At this point, I would leave behind a bunch of unorganized photography and artwork. I would be known as a talented person that fought for what is right. I would leave behind my family that I love very much. I would leave behind a silhouette of a person. I would be known for all the things I did, not for the kind of person I was. I am a mover and a shaker and types usually are known for what the do. After all, there is a lot of the world I haven't seen yet.
I had all these amazing thoughts of solutions to these problems. I had a moment of clarity where I was a cheerleader for myself. The defeated person that lives inside all of us, got sent to the bench. I made a list of all the things that I am that make my character and not the things I do. As my last breathing technique came to a close with Gary's words resonating in my brain, I took 5 really deep breaths, I clapped my hands together loudly and instinctively said, "F--- Yes! I got this!"
Conquer today not because I said. Conquer it because today could be your last.